I’ve been staring at a blank screen for years. Literally…years. From the time I was around 15 years old, I’ve believed with all my heart that I was suppose to be writing. I’ve managed to avoid it for nearly 3 decades, mostly out of fear and armed with an abundance of excuses. But over the last couple of years, God has been relentless in calling me to share with women His amazing grace over our brokenness, so this blog is being birthed out of a humble desire to obey that calling.
But that blank screen. It has stared back at me for hours upon hours, days upon days…months upon months, like an enormous stumbling block mocking my every attempt at beginning.
‘What if no one reads it?’
‘What if no one likes what I have to say?’
‘What are you supposed to write in a ‘first’ blog post, anyway?’
‘What if it’s not exciting enough and no one wants to visit again…for the good stuff…the REAL stuff that God has put on my heart to share with women?’
‘What if people, those who know what the last decade of my life has looked like, mock me…or worse yet, think to themselves ‘who does she think she is’?’
‘What if people think I’m self-righteous or arrogant for sharing what God has taught me through many hard and painful life lessons?’
All very real…and all very paralyzing questions I have allowed to prevent me from simply beginning. I woke up this morning knowing that today was to be the day I began. I didn’t have a grand plan, or even a plan at all, but I trusted that God did. So this morning as I was reading my Bible and anxiously praying for direction on how to simply begin…God whispered to His ever forgetful daughter, once again, the words I have heard Him speak to my heart every time I have set out to start something new.
Begin As You Intend to Go
So I am here…beginning as I intend to go. PRAYERFULLY. Trusting my Savior with my nervous and fragile heart. Trusting Him with the hearts of my precious family members as I walk out this calling to share the good news of God’s grace over our brokenness. Trusting Him in His promises that He can take my sin and brokenness, and the brokenness of my family (often as a result of my own sin), which has been deep and profound at times…and use it to reach the hearts of other women who need to be reminded of His grace. Trusting Him that He has a plan and a purpose and that He will equip me to be an encouragement to other women, in spite of myself.
My prayer, while I begin as I intend to go, is simple…”Lord, be the death of me.”
Put to death my PRIDE…and fill me with the HUMILITY of a servant following in the footsteps of her savior.
Put to death my FEAR…and fill me with COURAGE to boldly speak the truth of your love, hope, and redeeming grace.
Put to death my DESIRE FOR MAN’S APPROVAL…and fill me with a HEART LONGING TO HONOR YOU, and You alone, with my words, my attitude, and my actions.
Put to death my SINFUL BELIEF that I can accomplish anything on my own…and fill me with REMINDERS OF THE TRUTH that nothing will be accomplished apart from You.
Put to death my TENDENCY TO LOOK BACK…and fill me with a HOPEFUL VISION AND ANTICIPATION for where You are leading.
Put to death my ANXIETY over beginning a new journey…and fill me with the PEACE AND REST that is only found in You.
Put to death my ENVY of other’s accomplishments…and fill me with a HEART FOCUSED ON CONTENTMENT of where You have me.
Put to death my FEAR OF FAILURE…and fill me with a GODLY PERSPECTIVE OF SUCCESS that’s measured by my obedience to you and not defined by any earthly standards.
Put to death my SIN…and fill my heart with YOU.
So as I step out in faith that God has a purpose for this calling He has put on my heart of writing and speaking…my sincere prayer is that you will join me in three ways.
|1| By praying for me and with me. I covet your prayers that my words would honor God, bring glory to Him, and help draw women’s hearts closer to Him.
|2| By joining my email list to receive blog posts in your inbox. I will be blogging regularly on a weekly schedule that I will be releasing soon. The schedule of blog posts will consist of posts and post series that I feel led to share, shorter devotion type posts, and then some just for fun posts sprinkled throughout as well (recipes, book reviews, photography related posts, DIY posts, giveaways, etc.). There will also be occasional guest posts from other Christian writers.
|3| By sharing my blog with your friends. You can share easily by clicking on any of the social media share icons below, by “clicking to Tweet’ where applicable, by sharing post links on Facebook or Pinterest, etc. It’s new, so I realize there’s not much to share quite yet…but I am FULL of hopeful anticipation for the community of women that God wants to minister grace to in the midst of life’s brokenness. So, I would be grateful for your help in sharing the good news of the grace of God!
by His grace & for His glory,