Faith, Grace

Lord, Be the Death of Me. . .

Lord Be the Death of Me

I’ve been staring at a blank screen for years. Literally…years. From the time I was around 15 years old, I’ve believed with all my heart that I was suppose to be writing. I’ve managed to avoid it for nearly 3 decades, mostly out of fear and armed with an abundance of excuses. But over the last couple of years, God has been relentless in calling me to share with women His amazing grace over our brokenness, so this blog is being birthed out of a humble desire to obey that calling.

But that blank screen. It has stared back at me for hours upon hours, days upon days…months upon months, like an enormous stumbling block mocking my every attempt at beginning.

‘What if no one reads it?’

‘What if no one likes what I have to say?’

‘What are you supposed to write in a ‘first’ blog post, anyway?’

‘What if it’s not exciting enough and no one wants to visit again…for the good stuff…the REAL stuff that God has put on my heart to share with women?’

‘What if people, those who know what the last decade of my life has looked like, mock me…or worse yet, think to themselves ‘who does she think she is’?’

‘What if people think I’m self-righteous or arrogant for sharing what God has taught me through many hard and painful life lessons?’

All very real…and all very paralyzing questions I have allowed to prevent me from simply beginning. I woke up this morning knowing that today was to be the day I began. I didn’t have a grand plan, or even a plan at all, but I trusted that God did. So this morning as I was reading my Bible and anxiously praying for direction on how to simply begin…God whispered to His ever forgetful daughter, once again, the words I have heard Him speak to my heart every time I have set out to start something new.

Begin As You Intend to Go

So I am here…beginning as I intend to go. PRAYERFULLY. Trusting my Savior with my nervous and fragile heart. Trusting Him with the hearts of my precious family members as I walk out this calling to share the good news of God’s grace over our brokenness. Trusting Him in His promises that He can take my sin and brokenness, and the brokenness of my family (often as a result of my own sin), which has been deep and profound at times…and use it to reach the hearts of other women who need to be reminded of His grace. Trusting Him that He has a plan and a purpose and that He will equip me to be an encouragement to other women, in spite of myself.

My prayer, while I begin as I intend to go, is simple…”Lord, be the death of me.”

Jesus…

Put to death my PRIDE…and fill me with the HUMILITY of a servant following in the footsteps of her savior.

Put to death my FEAR…and fill me with COURAGE to boldly speak the truth of your love, hope, and redeeming grace.

Put to death my DESIRE FOR MAN’S APPROVAL…and fill me with a HEART LONGING TO HONOR YOU, and You alone, with my words, my attitude, and my actions.

Put to death my SINFUL BELIEF that I can accomplish anything on my own…and fill me with REMINDERS OF THE TRUTH that nothing will be accomplished apart from You.

Put to death my TENDENCY TO LOOK BACK…and fill me with a HOPEFUL VISION AND ANTICIPATION for where You are leading.

Put to death my ANXIETY over beginning a new journey…and fill me with the PEACE AND REST that is only found in You.

Put to death my ENVY of other’s accomplishments…and fill me with a HEART FOCUSED ON CONTENTMENT of where You have me.

Put to death my FEAR OF FAILURE…and fill me with a GODLY PERSPECTIVE OF SUCCESS that’s measured by my obedience to you and not defined by any earthly standards.

Put to death my SIN…and fill my heart with YOU.

Amen

So as I step out in faith that God has a purpose for this calling He has put on my heart of writing and speaking…my sincere prayer is that you will join me in three ways.

|1| By praying for me and with me. I covet your prayers that my words would honor God, bring glory to Him, and help draw women’s hearts closer to Him.

|2| By joining my email list to receive blog posts in your inbox. I will be blogging regularly on a weekly schedule that I will be releasing soon. The schedule of blog posts will consist of posts and post series that I feel led to share, shorter devotion type posts, and then some just for fun posts sprinkled throughout as well (recipes, book reviews, photography related posts, DIY posts, giveaways, etc.). There will also be occasional guest posts from other Christian writers.

|3| By sharing my blog with your friends. You can share easily by clicking on any of the social media share icons below, by “clicking to Tweet’ where applicable, by sharing post links on Facebook or Pinterest, etc. It’s new, so I realize there’s not much to share quite yet…but I am FULL of hopeful anticipation for the community of women that God wants to minister grace to in the midst of life’s brokenness. So, I would be grateful for your help in sharing the good news of the grace of God!

by His grace & for His glory,

Sandi

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31 Comments

  • Laura
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    Beautifully, perfectly written! Keep them coming ❀️

    • Sandi Sutton
      July 29th, 2017 · Reply

      Thank you, Laura! I appreciate that so much!

  • Susan
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    This was a great beginning!-Susan

    • Sandi Sutton
      July 29th, 2017 · Reply

      Thank you, Susan! πŸ’›

  • Mom
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    Looking forward to receiving more of your beautiful words

    • Sandi Sutton
      July 29th, 2017 · Reply

      Thank you, Mom! I love you so much!

  • Renee Ghee
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    Sandi….let’s do this!! Don’t forget Crispy Tales!! Love you so much!!!

    • Sandi Sutton
      July 29th, 2017 · Reply

      Lol! Oh goodness, Renee! I think I just may have to have a special category for the Adventures of Krispy. πŸ˜‚

  • Beverly Kerr
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    I am coming with you. πŸ™‚ I need these words β™₯️

    • Sandi Sutton
      July 29th, 2017 · Reply

      Oh Beverly…I’m so glad to have you here! πŸ’›

  • Michele
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    I’m blessed and inspired by you, friend! ❀️

    • Sandi Sutton
      July 29th, 2017 · Reply

      Thank you, Michele! πŸ’› XOXO

  • Lisa
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    Lovely Sandi, I relate completely. I recently started my blog and have had the very same self doubts….but God is bigger and your first post it wonderful. Blessings, can’t wait to read more from you

  • Tracy
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    May God expand your territory and use your voice to draw people to Himself. Blessings to you as you walk this journey. πŸ’œ

  • Julie Sunne
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    Congratulations on getting that first post behind you, Sandi, and a beautiful post it is! You have a wonderful plan, prayerfully follow God’s leading. You can’t help but succeed with Him leading, no matter how many readers you may garner. God bless you and your writing ministry.

  • Julie
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    I’m here, and I can’t wait to share! I’ve always truly enjoyed your writing, and believed you are meant to share your perspective, wisdom, humor and love for Him on a grander scale. I’m so excited you are stepping out in faith and answering this call, sweet friend!πŸ’•πŸ‘πŸ»πŸ“πŸ™

  • Cindy
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    I feel your heart beat. Keep writing from this vantage point!

  • Karen Michaelle
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    Beautifully said. As a “lifelong” writer myself, who finally starting actually writing things down, I relate to so much of this. I love that you began as you intend to go without concern for the right timing, according to the world’s standards. That’s a perfect stake in the ground to go His way as He leads to the audience and accomplishments He’s set before you. Keep writing! I’ll be sitting in your audience.

  • DORIS M CUSH
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    Beautiful “first” with blessed and profound more to follow! Blessings Sandi!

  • Lisa Feather
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    Oh my word, I can’t tell you how excited this makes me. With God breathing life giving words into you – the most talented artist in every sense of the word I have ever met – I can only imagine the plans He has for you. Excited to see what He does through you, for Him! MWAH! 😘

  • Bonnie
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    Sandi, You sound so like me before I started blogging. I tried the Moses’ excuse, Jonah run the opposite direction…No matter what when He has called you to write for Him you can’t hide. LOVE this post and your heart. Just seek Him for the words to share from your heart. This is an awesome start.

  • Nancy
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    Wow! Very well-done. I am not an expert on blog writing but your post is engaging and inspiring for me. I think it’s a great start.

  • Liz
    July 29th, 2017 · Reply

    Congratulations! Praying in agreement with you! Blessings on you beginning!

  • Uncle Dennis
    July 30th, 2017 · Reply

    You make me proud! I told you that you have something to say, and now you’re doing it! Keep it up! ( I do take partial credit for this coming to pass!)

    • Sandi Sutton
      July 30th, 2017 · Reply

      Thank you, Uncle Dennis! ❀️ It means so much to me to hear that! And yes…I’ll gladly give you some credit!

  • Elizabeth Flannigan
    July 30th, 2017 · Reply

    Congratulations! Praying for you as your journey begins. Looking forward to seeing more. Blessings sister in Christ. πŸ’›

  • Amy
    July 30th, 2017 · Reply

    You did it!!! ❀️ And I love this. I can’t wait for more and look forward seeing your heart burst open on these pages! Create an App for the blog and let’s get the women’s bible study going! So much to share and learn… together. As we remember we are women of Grace 😘

  • Tina Garza
    August 8th, 2017 · Reply

    Sandi I have grown to love your heart more and more over the years! This was an incredible start! When God is for us, who can stand against us! Thank you for sharing your heart for Jesus! Praying for you and your new leap of faith!!!

  • Amanda Harper
    August 9th, 2017 · Reply

    Oh sweet Sister-in-Christ, God is using you, your blog, and you’ve barely started. I found this post today on Facebook in a time of my life when my faith is growing from, “A faith of my parents” to a “faith of my own.” The growing pains and facing ones sins are, rightfully so, painful. But I know that God is going to use what I’m going through for His glory. Your blog, specifically the prayer you wrote, blessed me and spoke everything I couldn’t find the words to say. So when I read it, I teared up. I said, “This, Lord. Everything she has written in this prayer, I echo and is my true desire!” So, thank you, Sandi. For blessing me with your truthful words, your unbelievable courage, and faith to do what God has asked you to do; as scary as it is. I will most definitely sign up for your blog email and can’t wait to see what wisdom God has taught you to teach us. Rest peacefully that you are on the right path, Sandi.

    God bless you and your loved ones,
    Amanda Harper

    P.s. Many things jumped out of me when I checked out your blog that we have in common. 1) I lived in Phx for almost 18 years and moved to Spokane, Wa almost 6 years ago. In fact, I graduated from Corona del Sol in 2003. My dad was once one of the paster’s for Redemption Church in Gilbert. 2) I’m going to Spokane Falls Community College to learn photography. (I have a blog but have updated it in a long while. It’s on my todo list!) so when the top of your blog says “Photographer” The Photographer-Geek in me got really excited. πŸ˜‰

    • Sandi Sutton
      August 9th, 2017 · Reply

      Oh my goodness Amanda! Thank you so much for your sweet comment! I am so glad that this post was a blessing to you…and I am excited for you that you are embracing the fact that our faith must become our own. That’s a great place to be! I love hearing all the things we have in common as well…and you probably couldn’t know this, but my church is Redemption Gateway. πŸ™‚ I love when this great big world gets small!

  • Amanda Harper
    August 10th, 2017 · Reply

    LOL My dad, Jim Harper, helped train Luke Simmons years ago at the Gilbert campus before we moved to Spokane! We know that amazing family pretty well. I love seeing how the Body of Christ is so intwined!!! God bless you and can’t wait to see what you write next.

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